OKAY. I'm back from camp!!! It was fun, enoyable. Haha. I can say, it took some my of thoughts away. Kept me busy with other stuffs. Got to know so many people SO MUCH MORE. Interesting and crazy. Crapped like there's no ending, played like it's nobody's business. All in all, i guess all of us really bonded so much more. That's what i think. HEH. World Championships. Time to work hard to earn a place.

This camp really came at the right time. Esp for some of us. Esp for me. The past few weeks really drove us crazy. I was glad it could take us away from the crazy trainings. But, when it came to the last day of camp where we have to go kallang after packing up, i just can't wait to get back to train. haha. contradicting. but. yea. no matter how much i/we complain about it, it's still what i/we love.

And. I really ate alot this camp. Seriously. Junks especially. Extra's also give me. damn. i think i'm really turning into a pig.....I hope i could be dilligent enough to control my crazy diet and cut some FATS. This is the last week that i'm gonna binge. YES. ALL THE WAY FOR ABS!

Just one thing about today. MY LUCK WAS DOWN and my day just wasent in the right sort of way. So, after i had lunch with the usual gang at suntec, i went off first. So, i walked to the bus stop and the buses i could take just zoomed past me and zoomed off. GREAT. Could you imagine 2 at the same time. And i was still like 70m away from the bus stop where i see them drove off helplessly. =/ Then i had to carry so many things some more. 3 bags and a bag of chips. =x But there was really a hell lot of things to carry.

THEN. HERE COMES THE BEST PART WHERE I FELL ASLEEP AND DUNNO MISSED HOW MANY STOPS AND ENDED UP AT YIO CHU KANG MAYBE? There was no bus stops, i was on the high way and the bus can't stop. I was kinda scared. yes. scared when the bus went to some places where i haven seen before and so far away from home with so many stuffs to carry, tired, mentally and physically. what a day. then, finally when there's was a stop to get down, although i could just go to the opp. to take the same bus back, all i was thinking is to quickly flag for a cab and go home coz i felt DAMN LOST AND I AM INDEED LOST. moreover i was listening to that stupid song and i felt even worse.

ok. then, all the way before, during and after training i was just sniffing away. it's DAMN IRRITATING. but with the way i am, i think i'm not gonna be rid of it soon. no matter what people tell me not to eat because i was sick, i just don't care. i dunno when will i listen, i dunno who i would listen to. i think, no one could stop me because it's FOOD we are talking about. haha. anyways, training was ok. it's like a whole new kind of feeling playing games, with the same people. then, there's this irritaing spliter that got right up into my nail and flesh when i was getting out of the boat. took me quite some time to get it out. that splinter. sigh.

okays. pulled s.c along to marina though she was quite unwilling to acc me. BUT SHE GOT A TREAT IN THE END. so, i'm quite a nice friend huh. just felt like spending some money. the usual thing. so, went all around marina, and ended up at suntec.

the "moustache"

twirled arnd mng for like 45 mins before i got the pathetic one pair of jeans....
the poor girl who waited like hell (when i was shopping), dont even wanna give me face. lol.



sigh. and it seems like i just have to force myself to pretend. feels like the same o' thing's happening once again. one good thing comes and one goes. again. tell me why, but it feels like a joke played all over. sometimes i can handle it pretty well, sometimes i can't. i dunno how i am. and i'm starting to feel restricted trying to express myself.
how bout u?

yuck

This is the medicine that i've got. And this is the disgusting cough syrup that i drank together with my bubble tea. Almost PUKED.

i'm sick, sick, sick! FLU, COUGH, FEVER.

guess i'm not that strong afterall. gonna stop all the flu that's wasting my tissue papers away. all day long just stone there blowing my nose away. until i nose bleed. lol. but i had tom yam noodles before that. i just can't give it a miss!

ate biscuit and all the heaty stuffs. i just don't bother. maybe i can't be bothered. oh wells, hope i'm visiting the doc by tml.

JUNE TWENTY-FOURTH

i'm still thinking, waiting, hoping, praying, predicting, guessing, preparing, wishing, looking.

can't just sit by can i? or do i just close one eye?

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alright. i just can't believe that i have to spend the whole of my hols training. 6 days a week. that leaves monday free only. =/ guess i'll just have to make use of the free time that i have before and after trainings to GET A LIFE. Seriously, what in the hell is no life? Think my life is just like taking a roller coaster. Breath-takingly FUN.


Rights. Recently heard from some people about views on the team. It was a third-party view. So, i guess it's a comment that has to be taken seriously? Guess there would be another team talk soon. Our hectic time-tables and life are just driving us crazy. Sometimes, we need a break. Sometimes, we need to break some rules to let loose. Though it dosent seem very appropriate to do so, it sometimes just slip our minds so easily that it wasent on purpose. Alrights. Like what i'v said, our hectic lifes and time-tables. I just hope that we could compromise and give-in so that there's a happily ever after right?


Since the start of 2007, half a year gone already. But there was really a bundle of thoughts that i had to drag through almost every day. After letting go some, more came along. I guess this is just part of growing up. I'm 19. Going 20. Not a girl, not yet a woman. Maybe i'm not alone. My point is. It really is a wonder how we could handle so many things in such a short period of time. Think there's alot going on in my life. Whether it is known or shadowed, they are all in control. Too much considerations, too many decisions to make. It sometimes would drive us crazy. But i guess we learn from it.


And just yesterday, when my mum called me to inform me about the arrival of my package, she asked me whether i could actually handle my life. Whether i was stress or not, bla bla. And she was actually asking me quit polo. haha. and i actually gave it a hard thought before replying her. It's kinda scary when it comes to a point to realise that the thing that was the cause of ur so many problems could actually be just there to let go and you just didnt see it. And why hadn't i see it? Maybe it's because it has already become part of my life, my routine. Come to think of it, maybe if it wasent polo. I wouldnt had a life like this. Polo, mould me into someone stronger. Mentally and physically. In areas. yea. hah.


I guess. One has really have to do the stuff that you love and want to. The first time that i see this sport during it's showcase, i signed up without a second thought even though no one in my group had signed up. I was sure i would love this sport. And, yea. I love it and I'm glad that i made a right choice and persevered on. The people that i'v known and all, it really is a wonder how ur life would turn out to be when you do something you like and how far it could bring you in life.

SEE LA.

+ 'see la. now drop into the pool already'
= 'u think i dunno how to swim meh'
+ 'ok la. now not pool already. Mud. stuck there already'
= 'wait for some floating device lor'