disfigured

this is really freaking me out. it was just after one pool slot and ..... my leg becomes like this.

KILL ME

Clean training grounds + proper goal posts + calm waters + sarpino's pizza + NASI LEMAK = SHIOK

are confessions supposed to be good or bad? I had a hard time thinking through the consequences. but, i guess, although it might hurt some feelings or change the attitude towards something that has always be pleasant, i believe it is better known than kept in the dark. at least, you know, and others know what you are actually thinking and probably, start working towards something that is bigger.

it is seldom that you get to confess something. unless u'r someone who's so passionate that u change your love for someone else like changing underwear. BUT. my point here is nothing bout those r/s thingy. More of confessions to my life, people, friends, cca and whatever else. So many things has happened. Little are known. Sometimes, it is tough to now figure out everything by myself. HOWEVER. along the way, you find people new that you could talk to. You lose something, and you gain it somewhere along the way. Give and take.

When There Was Me And You - VANESSA ANNE HUDGENS

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

haha. i can't believe i'm so crazy over movie OSTs! this is from the disney high school musical. somemore from aladdin, beauty and the beast, little mermaid. lol

I FAILED MY FTT.

SKIPPED MOST OF MY 8AM LESSONS.

SCHOOL HAVENT TRANSFER ME $$$.

SCREWED UP WEEK.

suddenly

i feel tired. i feel drained. i feel overwhelmed. i feel....

haha. weird feelings. maybe i ran too much.

rainy day

yesterday. went kallang, turned around and we'r at VIVO. lol. was with jac and kailin.it was pouring. so, decided to give the not compulsory nat. training a skip. then, went harbourfront centre, had MACs breakfast. heh. bought 4D with borrowed money. lol. didnt strike anything. like, obviously. heh

took like a few. but this is the only one with all 3 inside. =p and. great. just look at my eye-bags. lol. the cause of watching walt disney classics until 1-2am. Little Mermaid, Beauty & The Beast, Aladdin. GOOD OLD MOVIES. MUAHAHA.

after that, went singapore discovery centre to set up the playing area. not really set it up though. went there to tie the buoys to the rope and stuff under the hot sun. =/ yea. until 4pm. =_=. took the bus where it broke down. took 1 1/2 hours to reach home. oh man. how am i gonna survive travelling so far SO EARLY IN THE MORNING NEXT TIME?! and i dropped dead when i reach home. freaking tired.

an alternative? too lost to even consider or give it a thought.

BELIEVE ME.

i'm truly serious about losing weight.

new gym~

firstly. i wonder why do i always have things to blog about almost every day. actually, i'm supposed to be doing my project now. but. blogging's more fun.

anyways. i FINALLY have the time to go for the gym orientation. omg.

AFTER SO SO LONG! Since it opened in april/may? the toilet is SUPER BIG. THEY HAVE HOT SHOWERS TOO! and. check it out. hair-dryers. now i can't wait to hit the gym! gonna lose some weight.

and i was 'forced' to use the laptop in the toilet's cubicle while waiting for S.LIM. she claimed it's 'the in thing'. =/

ok. then waited like 3 and 1/2 hours with jac for panda before hitting town. walked around PS. practically got stuck there before running off to other parts of town looking for stuffs before returning back.

check out her new phone. w800i? i'm so tempted to change too.

so, while waiting for things to be done. CHILLED AT STARBUCKS. i guess coffee clubs are gonna turn into my fav hangout. cam whore with jac while panda's in her own world. totally.

pple must be thinking we were crazy. and. yea. crazy hair.

yea. it's coffee again.

and jac looks super happy.

think this is alot? there's a whole lot more. lol.

so, tml's the prize presentation. and it kinda feels weird to be going up there myself though my mum's coming. i guess i'm gonna give the dinner a miss.

and it repeats.

OKAYS. this is what happen when great minds really think alike. LOL. This happened today. both of us almost looked similar. but. not as much as the other one. check out the 2 other funny monkeys who's trying hard to pose. =p
this is the classic one. WHEN I STILL HAD LONGER HAIR. HAHA

another tues

today's a slack day. had my presentation (don't feel like talking bout it), short day. so, got nothing to do before the meeting, went chillin' at holland v. hmmm....snacked at breko. the mozeralla cheese thing IS FANTASTIC. after that, went around deciding on which cafe to chill at. So, we ended up at starbucks. saw quite a number of familiar faces. jasper and yanyi. another one....i'm not so sure if it's a familiar face. anyways, to hell with it.

and i'm getting addicted to HOT STUFFS. hot beverages. hahaha. maybe it's time for a change of taste. Last time was all the iced stuff. Now i realise that the hot stuffs are more appealing. yea man. now i'm learning to appreciate all the stuffs that i was 'ignorant' about.

after that, rushed off to sp for nat champs meeting. and it's COMING SOON. better get prepared for it. an organising team was formed amongst the schools. So, logistics's under NP now. Hope it's an easy job. lol

and i hope money's rolling in soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


naval piercing. here i come.

but. having a lot of doubts about it. coz with my current lifestyle, i'm more prone to getting infections on the wound. damn.

p.s today's the first time in donkey months that i skipped dinner. HOW SURPRISING MAN.

OKAY. I'm back from camp!!! It was fun, enoyable. Haha. I can say, it took some my of thoughts away. Kept me busy with other stuffs. Got to know so many people SO MUCH MORE. Interesting and crazy. Crapped like there's no ending, played like it's nobody's business. All in all, i guess all of us really bonded so much more. That's what i think. HEH. World Championships. Time to work hard to earn a place.

This camp really came at the right time. Esp for some of us. Esp for me. The past few weeks really drove us crazy. I was glad it could take us away from the crazy trainings. But, when it came to the last day of camp where we have to go kallang after packing up, i just can't wait to get back to train. haha. contradicting. but. yea. no matter how much i/we complain about it, it's still what i/we love.

And. I really ate alot this camp. Seriously. Junks especially. Extra's also give me. damn. i think i'm really turning into a pig.....I hope i could be dilligent enough to control my crazy diet and cut some FATS. This is the last week that i'm gonna binge. YES. ALL THE WAY FOR ABS!

Just one thing about today. MY LUCK WAS DOWN and my day just wasent in the right sort of way. So, after i had lunch with the usual gang at suntec, i went off first. So, i walked to the bus stop and the buses i could take just zoomed past me and zoomed off. GREAT. Could you imagine 2 at the same time. And i was still like 70m away from the bus stop where i see them drove off helplessly. =/ Then i had to carry so many things some more. 3 bags and a bag of chips. =x But there was really a hell lot of things to carry.

THEN. HERE COMES THE BEST PART WHERE I FELL ASLEEP AND DUNNO MISSED HOW MANY STOPS AND ENDED UP AT YIO CHU KANG MAYBE? There was no bus stops, i was on the high way and the bus can't stop. I was kinda scared. yes. scared when the bus went to some places where i haven seen before and so far away from home with so many stuffs to carry, tired, mentally and physically. what a day. then, finally when there's was a stop to get down, although i could just go to the opp. to take the same bus back, all i was thinking is to quickly flag for a cab and go home coz i felt DAMN LOST AND I AM INDEED LOST. moreover i was listening to that stupid song and i felt even worse.

ok. then, all the way before, during and after training i was just sniffing away. it's DAMN IRRITATING. but with the way i am, i think i'm not gonna be rid of it soon. no matter what people tell me not to eat because i was sick, i just don't care. i dunno when will i listen, i dunno who i would listen to. i think, no one could stop me because it's FOOD we are talking about. haha. anyways, training was ok. it's like a whole new kind of feeling playing games, with the same people. then, there's this irritaing spliter that got right up into my nail and flesh when i was getting out of the boat. took me quite some time to get it out. that splinter. sigh.